look who turned eighteen the other day. no longer a baby or a child but officially an adult. the years sure did fly bye and just like that our first is now legally an adult.
all though I did tell him as long as he lives under my roof he's still a kid. it helps he's still a senior. my last year with him before he goes out into the big bad world. i hope he enjoys his last year at home and being a kid with no real responsibilities (
oh i remember those days when your biggest problem was what to wear or where you were going).
we didn't do much just went out to eat and then a cake. i would like to say that i didn't get teary eyed but that would be a lie. still when i think about how fast these 18 years have gone bye i get choked up. i think the hardest part for me will be letting go. you can say i'm a little control freak. knowing that soon i will have no control over him is scary. yes he will still need me but not in his everyday decisions. i worry and think: did i do a good enough job? will he make the right decisions? will he be safe out in the world? will he ask me for help if he needed it? will he be happy? is he confident to be on his own? will he be successful? will he be a good husband? or a good father? does he have enough to eat? you know all things that keep you up at night. for now i will try to relax and enjoy our last year together (while i still have control over things). who knows maybe i can convince him to go to school here? (wishful thinking on my part)
*to my son thank you for being my first. thank you for going along for the ride. you were my first and it was trial and error alot of the time. thank you for growing with me and teaching me to be a mother. thank you for teaching me what it was like to love someone so much you didn't think there was room for another child. thank you for letting me see so much of myself in you (even if it's scary at times).
the 10 things i would like you to know:
1. don't be in such a hurry to grow up
2. enjoy yourself, love yourself, respect yourself
3. what matters the most now will not matter in ten years
4. skies the limit
5. you don't have to have a plan just a direction
6. the two people who will always love you no matter what are your parents
7. don't be in a hurry to runaway from home later you will wish you could run back
8. love your siblings at the end they will be your best friends
9. master being young you have the rest of your life to master being old
10. don't have to much pride to ask your parents for help
and all though he isn't going to take these things to heart now... one day he will look back and say i remember my mom saying this...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
